Tah apa mimpinyer semalam..aku mimpi bestfriend ku yang seorang lelaki...si cacat tu la sapa lagi...dalam mimpi tu..siap berjalan2 ngan dia..aduh...mesra sangat..terbayang2 muka dia sekarang....dalam mimpi tu..dia pakai seluar pendek coklat n baju t-shirt putih..dia duk shopping barang2 dia...dari baju sampai la ke seluar...dia siap pegang tangan aku lagi tu....then..aku terjaga...tido balik...boleh la mimpi tu disambung...hampeh tul la...huhuh...

semalam...dia ada bercerita pasal the girl yang dia admire sekrang...aku hanya boleh bagi nasihat kat dia..jgn mengharap sangat....nanti takut dia dah happy2..kena cam dulu lak...sian dia...aku yang mendengar cerita dia time dia frust dulu pun..cam nak nangis...sian dia..takper la..selagi aku leh nasihat dia...aku nasihat ler kat dia....huhuhhuhu...

takper la...meh kita nyanyi lagu ni....actually lagu ni..ada meaning nyer utk aku...untuk sapa aku tujukan...tu tak leh bagitau...heheh....

Samsons - Bukan Diriku

Setelah kupahami aku bukan yang terbaik
Yang ada di hatimu
Tak dapat kusangsikan
Ternyata dirinyalah yang mengerti kamu
Bukanlah diriku ..

Kini maafkanlah aku
Bila aku menjadi bisu kepada dirimu
Bukan santunku terbungkam
Hanya hatiku berbatas 'tuk mengerti kamu
Maafkanlah aku..

Chorus :
Walau ku masih mencintaimu
Ku harus meninggalkanmu
Ku harus melupakanmu
Meski hatiku menyayangimu
Nurani membutuhkanmu
Ku harus merelakanmu

Dan hanyalah dirimu
Yang mampu memahamiku
Yang dapat mengerti aku

Ternyata dirinyalah
Yang sanggup menyanjungmu
Yang ramah menyentuhmu
Bukanlah diriku..

huwaaaaaa....tak nak carik pasal lagi.....

Yesterday...sebelum balik...lepak minum dulu ngan FZ n Che Am...perut aku mmg lapar gila...yelah..tengahari tak makan....so..apa lagi..balun roti telur....tapi tak habis..so..tukang habisnyer si FZ....haiya....sebenarnyer nak cepat...sebabnyer nak kelular...jumpa kawan baru...then...balik jer...terhegeh-hegeh aku siap...then..amik my friend...kat shah alam..terus ke Hartamas....sampai2...call that guy...and aku nampak la la...dia mengangkat tangan...then...tgk dia tgh makan dgn kawan dia..aduhh..aku terlambat..then aku tak banyak cakap...yelah...1st time jumpa..aku ni sebenarnyer pemalu...tapi kalau dah kenal ...tak de la...then...this guy umur 30 today....bday dia hari ni....Aduh..ayat2 dia boleh tahan berbisa gak...boleh tak dia tanya aku..."You ni smoking ker..."aku cakap mana ada n tanya kenapa..?then dia cakap...bibir aku gelap....gelap?aku confius..cuba korang tgk gambar aku ni.....bibir aku gelap ker....sila ker

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aduh...then dia cakap....you ni kenapa tak banyak cakap...ur sister talkative...aikkk...nak bandingkan aku ngan sister aku la yer...dah tu..kenapa nak sangat berkawan ngan aku....baik kawan ngan adik aku jer....then dia cakap..muka adik aku matured lagi daripada muka aku..kiranyer aku ni awet muda la...kononnyer...lagi satu ayat dia yang buat aku bingit is..."u ni kalau diam...i balik nanti..." aik...dah tu..kalau dia diam...tak bercakap apa..buat apa...then kawan dia pun cakap...lain kali jangan lambat....aik...salah aku lagi la...but kawan dia look familiar...tak tau la mana jumpa..aduh..macam ni agaknyer kalau keluar dengan orang umur 30....tension..n tak di nafikan....this guy yang aku kenal ni...boleh tahan garang jugak la...aku rasa cam nak nangis jer semalam...yelah...kena tegur cam tu..at least...kalau kau nak sound pun..sound la elok2...then dia kata lagi..nasib la dia tak keluarkan ayat2 melaka....aku cakap kat dia...kalau dia dah start keluar ayat2 tu...dia tak suruh  bangun pun..aku dah bangun tinggalkan dia...SENTAP gila...his face remind me of somebody.....takper la....so..kawan dia bagi aku satu lagi ayat pedas...."lain kali jangan lambat lagi..."aikk..dia juga yang kata...dalam 9.30...aku pun tak expect dia leh sampai awal daripada aku....nak ikut kan hangin dia...hangin aku dia tak ingat.....so..they have to balik earlier...cos his friend ..wife dia dah masak kat rumah...so..dia cakap..he will call me..tak call pun tak per la....aku tak kisah....argghhh...so..sebelum dia nak balik..dia hulur tangan....salam..n also kawan dia tu pun menghulur tangan..aku pun salam la....so..aku pegi  balik kat meja kawan aku.....then...terus aku call FZ..cerita all the things....dia kata..kalau garang2 sangat..tak payah la....n he said...tgk macam dia...baik je..tak garang2..eleh...hang cakap cam tu pun....bukannyer hang nak kat aku....lempang kang........huwaaaaaaaa......nak nangis......maintain2.....on the way balik hantar kawan2 aku ke shah alam...that guy message aku...dia tanya aku dah balik ker belum..or still melepak kan diri lagi...aku reply...aku dah on the way balik..memandangkan dah pukul 12...aku wish la dia bday..biasa la..aku ni kan bersopan santun...bak kata dia.....hei...hensem2..tapi garang....patut la dari dalam kereta perut aku dah kecut...rupa2nyer nak kena marah.....huwaaaaaaa...aku pun message kawan aku..cakap pasal benda ni...tapi dia tak de kat sini...dia kat  Singapore....kalau tak...sure balik tu..aku terus direct jumpa dia....bencinyer.....

Macam mana aku kenal this guy...adik aku la yang kenalkan..bersungguh2 dia nak kenalkan aku....n this guy plak..asyik2 report kat adik aku...aduh...tu yang buat aku pening kepala.....takper la...kita tgk macamana.....aduh...Dilemma dilemma....abaikan.....

Hai...Tension gila sekarang ni...Tolong orang salah..tak tolong orang salah..supposely..aku dapat duit aku Isnin lepas...tapi..sampai sekarang tak dapat lagi..bengkak dah otak aku ni...nak menjerit rasanyer...semalam jumpa mamat tu...tak terpandang rasa dia kat aku.....aku plak rasanyer nak lempang dia laju2....baboooonnn...bestfriend aku kat office ni pun..dah pening kepala..sebab dia jadi orang tengah.....hai..terasa bodoh jap diri ni....kalau aku tau la jadi cam ni...aku tak bagi dia pinjam...nak jer aku toreh kereta dia......tak pun...belasah dia...bukan besar mana pun mamat tu....aiyakkk...tekanan..aku lak yang kena cover perut skrg ni.....benciiiiiiii.......hari ni terasa cam kechik hati...yelah...kawan makan kat office ni...dah tak ingat aku time makan...takperlah...aku tak kisah...tapi terasa la....time tak de orang...baru la nak mencari......huhh!!!jangan emo...relaks...tak makan pun tak per la...leh kurus...tapi kalau kurus sakit nak buat apa....takper la...yang mana ingat kat aku tu...terima kasih....berbalik kepada cerita duit tadi....kalau ikutkan hangin aku...dah lama mamat tu kene ledet ngan aku...binat tul la...baboonnn...hanjinggggg...auk auk gong gong.....!!!!!!tgk...bahasa aku pun dah lain macam...banyak tul alasan dia...aku tak nak la sebab benda ni...aku ngan kawan aku ni bertekak......tak best la cam tu....heiii....Satu lagi benda yang buat aku pening kepala...tah sapa2 la bagi no phone aku kat kawan dia nyer kawan...aku lemas la..kalau cam ni..tak nak cakap sapa bagi la..apa la...bukannyer aku nak hangin ker apa...at least aku tau sapa bagi..n aku tau lelaki jenis mana kawan2nyer.....pada kekawan aku yang baca ni..kalau korang ada terbagi no phone aku kat korang nyer kawan kepada kawan...baiklah ngaku...bila aku tanya lelaki tu...dia kata...i dah janji dengan kawan i tak nak cakap siapa bagi...ewahhhhh.....cam tu..suka hati aku la yer..nak jawab call or message kau.....tu semua taktik lama la...orang dah tak pakai..aku lebih suka orang berterus terang...ni nak sorok2.....angin tul aku...susah sangat ker nak cakap sapa yang bagi no phone tu...daripada aku tak hangin...jadi hangin satu badan.......

Hei...Bila la aku leh dapat duit aku ni....hampehs tul la....bukannyer sikit...banyak tau tak...geramnyerrrrrrrrrrr......takper...lepas ni aku push lagi kawan aku.....sapa suruh dia buat janji ngan aku...kata hari isnin..ni dah khamis....Semalam...sepatutnya ikut diorang pegi PLanet...aku dah siap2..tiba2..ada satu perasaan menyelinap...perasaan   MALAS....serious malas...padahal time tu dah siap dah.....tinggal nak naik kereta jer...call cousin aku....tetiba..cousin aku call..cakap dia tak jadi pergi....lagi la bertambah2 malas....dah tu..nanti kat sana..sure aku diam jer....hem..yelah..kawan2 aku ngan perempuanz yang ada..takper la...

Hari tu...pegi temankan kawan aku ni...at 1st pegi maison...pas tu...ada kawan diorang nyer awek tak mo stay lama kat situ..so..kitaorang gerak gi Zouk....ingatkan best sangat la pegi sana...rupa2nyer...tak la best mana pun...tapi aku tak kisah..aku enjoy tengok kawan aku menari...at least dia happy...n aku pun happy tengok dia cam tu..tak yah la dia nak pening2 kepala fikir apa yang dah jadi....ramai lagi la perempuan kat luar tu kawan....muka hensem..apa nak risau kan...aku la kawan dia time dia tengah gila...risau gak la kan..tengok dia cam tu...mana tak dia...dia duk cerita tu..cerita ni..kalau korang jadi kawan dia...sure korang pun risau..cam aku ni ha....tak nak la kawan aku jadi tak betul kan..sian dia..pandai pun pandai...hensem pun hensem...baik pun baik(baik tak ingat la)....stylo pun stylo....semuanyer ok la....tapi tak la perfect kan...nobody perfect in this world....

Argghhhh....nak duit aku ......bila la nak dapat...babiesss tul la.........ni tak boleh sabar dah ni....ARGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!

House: Hufflepuff
Boyfriend: Dumbledore
Best friend: Cedric and Cho

Harry Is jealous that you are going out with dumbledore, and he isnt.. he likes the older men too!!

Ron Is also jealous, and wants you to tap- dance with the spiders!!

Hermione - Is to busy studying to notice anything that goes on in your world!!

Draco Is your secret lover on the side..

Fred and George Who??? Dont know you, but think you sound like a good person to prank, but would never cos you are close to dumbledore

Neville Who??? Dont know you, but thinks you sound dumb!!! Even more stupid then him!!

Teachers Are to scared to give you detention cos of your oh so cute boyfriend!! Lol

Petang semalam aku dikejutkan dengan pemergian seorang saudara sebelah ayah aku....arwah di kenali sebagai Uncle Mie di kalangan saudara....Aku dapat tau pun coz of our cousin call my sister...then for confirmation aku call auntie aku..but dia pun tak tau...i call my dad...dia pun tak tau...tak per la..at least aku dah sampaikan apa yang dah jadi....then....balik dari tempat keje..aku sempat pegi minum dgn kawan kat coffee bean subang parade....n then...my auntie from Taman Tun call...dia tanya sama ada aku akan pegi ke tidak...yes..aku pegi..tapi tunggu call daripada my sister...so..around 7 aku gerak balik rumah...bersiap...tunggu my sister yg lambat ..then amik my dad....sampai di kawasan rumah Bachiek di ampunk...aku tgk banyak kereta parking di kiri kanan bahu jalan....so..bila sampai di rumah...aku tgk jenazah uncle Mie ada di tgh ruang tamu...my dad singkap kain yang menutup muka jenazah...aku cari Bachiek...she still look strong even umur dah mengjangkau 76...setitik air mata pun tak turun masa kitaorang salam dia....she just said that " ingatkan kita yang pergi dulu..." aku salam all the Bachiek n Syed family yang datang....before balik...borak2 ngan cousin2 yg ada...so... a few minutes after that...kitaorang pun melangkah pulang...

                                                      "Al Fatihah"

21/6/06 -12.30 pm : Received info from TELCO manager and i was ask to go for seminar at Pangkor.Registration closed at 1.00 pm.Argghh...then if i don't wanna go..i've to talk with my COO...then i call my COO a.k.a boss...i ask him ...am i relly have to..and he said yes...b4 he said anything more...then i decided i've to go....3 days u know....and i'm alone..supposely..i go with my Network manager..but becoz it was last minute invitation and he can't make it...then he wanted to replace his engineer to go..but my boss said no...argghhh...i've to go alone....nevermind...so...at nite..packing my stuff...

22/6/06 - at 8.15 i'm already at the Plaza IBM..and straight up to the bus...we reached Lumut around 12.25 pm...waiting the ferry to go to the Pangkor island...so..arrived at the island...received key for my room and other stuff for the nite party...they give us pario for ladies and shirt for the men...hemm...party theme for that nite : Tropical Beach Party....so the party was nice...everybody have to sing..and me and my table are the last person to sing that nite....and i'm the lead singer....arrgghhh......malu gila..and i choose the can't fight the moonlight song...hahah...after i finished the song...everbody was like...."Hurayyyyy..."wah..feels like i'm in the Malaysian Idol or AF....The dj said.."not bad..not bad.." my hand shaking and out of sudden i feel very cold....haha..then nothing to do..just lepak at the lobby...see the show  from Philipinos singers...nice...at one of the guys invite me to dance...and i said ok...hehe...

 

 

23/6/2006 - on this day....my day was really full....from morning to evening...i'm in the conference room...but the seminar finished at 4.30pm...after that..i have to go for my Spa...and also watch them play beach volleyball..but then..i fall asleep..and miss all the thing....my friend said..it was raining...no wonder....haha...so..get myself ready for the dinner tonite....today they served chinese food..nyumnyum...and after a few meal..the Philipinos group as us..who gonna join them on the stage...and everybody was start calling my name...oh my gosh!!!...everybody was shouting my name....my goodness...so..i step at the stage..and started choosing my song...so i pick up the How do I Live...hemm....finished the song..and the crowd got mad again...again i feel like im in the Malaysian Idol or AF....and they stated that...why i'm not joining the reality show...if i'm entering the reality show..they telll me that i already have the voters...hahah...if like that ya..lucky me...nyehnyeh...after that..the crowd start dancing....haha..this is really fun...everybody was enjoying theirself...best....we go for salsa...hiphop...r n b...all kind of song..and when the dancing queen song hit the dance floor...i was drag by the philipinos singer to the stage...again...i'm entertaining them ...wah this gonna be my part time job..heheh...the crowd really put the trust on me...mamamiya...malam berjalan sungguh pantas sekali...heheh...so tomorrow..we gonna leave this place....

24/6/2006 - check out from the hotel around 11.30..have to wait for the bus...it's raining...heavy raining...argghh..laut bergelora...and when i'm entering the ferry..i really feel dizzy...uweekk...uweeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.....entering the jetty and bus already there for us...take 15 minutes to buy something for my office people...so rushing...and arrived at Plaza IBM Tmn Tun.. around 4.45...take taxi to go home..coz my sister can't pick me up...again...arghhh....on the way back from Pangkor...i've received sms from my auntie...as me to come to her house tonite...coz my Perak's family is there..my grandma..my unlce...my cousin...argghh..and the last words from my aunt sms...:sila bawak pakwe sekali.."gosh....so..around 7.30...go to Keramat..baru jer nak masuk rumah....i was ask by them...where's ur bf..aik...the question pop up again...shittttt.....argghhh..tekanan tekanan....and all my uncle are asking me...why i still don't have a bf...this thing is not easy...and they don't believe me that i still don't have bf..even my grandma..and also my auntie...aiyakkkk...help me...nevermind..i'll try my best to make it happen..soon...insya allah...but who's the guy..?

so..the gathering finished at 1.00 am...i feel very tired...and i'm driving like crazy insane person...sampai rumah around 1.30 am....

the most Controversy thing  rite now is my status....all my family and all my relatives are waiting and really hope that i'll get marry ASAP.....so...sapa2 bujang di luar sana....sila isi borang...hehehehhe.............

Received this from KAeDeRu....

what is this about...buat jer la....

the rules:

- The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points about his/her perfect lover.
- Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
- Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
- If you are tagged the second time. There is NO need to do this again.
- Lastly, most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT.

keh...this the answer...

1. 8 different points about my perfect lover

• he's adorable
• funny
• understanding
• he loves me because of me
• beriman
• caring
• loves my family
• easy going

2. Gender of my perfect lover

• of coz a man....

 

Oppss..I did it again...tapi aku tak tau...aku tak tau yang dia dah ada gf..if i knew that he already have someone..i will not this feeling ruin my life...oh my god...apa aku dah buat...tapi..lucky me..he'll fly over to somewhere to work for 1 year...i think so....how do i know he already have a girl....dia yang bagitau sendiri...huhuhu...takper..at least aku  tau..and i'm so lucky..sebab tak terbelikan apa2 farewell gift lagi....if hari tu..aku beli jam untuk dia...sure aku akan rasa...Dusssshhhhhh!!!!!Arghhh...tapi sure tak ada penyesalan..ker menyesal...ntah la...tak tau ler rasanyer...again n again..aku duk sorang2...bersama environment yang menekankan kepala...bukan aku sengaja nak tensionkan diri..tapi environment yang memaksa aku....KAP WAU SIN WAU TA betul la....betul ker aku eja tu...hehe..kalau tak kena masuk kelas IQRA' balik ni....

Last saturday,aku ngan KNK ke Ikea,Ikano n The Curve...lepak2 makan2 kat The Curve...yang pastinyer...makanan dia..aku leh masak kat umah..serupa n sama..nyehnyeh..tapi pedasnyer..tak ingat..heheh...

Semalam..aku melepek kat rumah...hajat nak call adik aku mintak tolong belikan bubur...sebab..satu makanan pun tak boleh masuk kat badan aku...aku makan roti..terus keluar balik...pastu..muntah lagi..tapi  muntah air jer la...perghh!!Badan aku sungguh melayang...suhu badan naik...adakah sebab aku tension aku jadi cam ni...aku dapat detect..everytime kalau something happen yang berkaitan ngan hati dan perasaan...sure aku akan jadi cam ni...but then....aku rasa..aku gastrik juga ni...hari ni pun...tak mau makan...pagi tadi jer makan cereal..tu pun semangkuk kecik..pas tu..bila tengok kawan aku makan sandwich...aku nak muntah dah...aiyakkk....i'm SO SICK....kalau ada kawan aku tu..sure dia cakap aku PSYCHO....lambat pulak dia nak masuk office..cuti lama sangat..almaklumlah..orang sakit...nyehnyeh..sakit pun macam tak sakit....berjalan je keje dia..haiya...ini olang...tarak boleh duduk diam2...

tak per la..what ever happen pun...bak kata Siti...Biarlah Rahsia

 

Bercakap mengenai aura ni...one thing telah terjadi semalam...aku balik dari OU semalam...hati ak meronta2 nak lalu dpn kedai minum yang aku selalu lepak tiap2 petang tu...and FYI..aku nampak apa yang aku ingini...man of the month..hehe...it's him....nyehnyeh...sukanyer hati...dia hon aku...heheh..and he just turunkan cermin and said that..dia menang main bola...ok la tu...masa tunggu K beli barang kat 7Eleven..aku call dia..dia cerita that..siap ada fight masa main bola tu...and the last word from him.."see you tomorrow.."

Today...si Robocop cerita pasal what was happening yesterday...boleh tahan jugak yer man of the month tu nyer temper...lucky ada si Megat and Cacat...if not..i don't know what will happen..

About this man of the month...just knew him for a few month...but after came back from Omra..he's the one who invite me to go for minum petang..as usual...then..we start chat..and so on...somebody from the Kerajaan atas awan said that he ask them if i has bf...i don't  know....maybe he just asking...then..boleh dikatakan..almost everyday...i'll follow them for minum petang..itupun if he invite me..otherwise..i'll not go....

Just started to be friend with him...he tell me that he'll be no longer working here anymore..starting next month..i feel really sick and sad...why that he have to go..why why why...why this thing happens again to me...stop...iklan jap...hehe..baru sat2 ni..dia panggil aku tuan puteri...almaklumlah..pakai skirt hari ni..heheh...continue bout the story...sesungguhnya saat yang terindah hanyalah sementara....benci nyer..takper la...what to do...i just knew him for a few months only..so..i can't do anything....just feel happy for him..and hope that he achieve what he want...i'll pray for him...and i'm happy that he wanna be my friend....i'm so lucky...i think becoz of his personality and the way he treat me..makes me feel so in luv with him...but things will never go as what I expected...what if I miss him badly..should i take the flight that makes all my body shutting down in 8 hours...?what should i do..?

i'm gonna miss you dude...do not forget me...hope that u'll take care yourself there...do send us email here..coz all ur friends here don't want to lose you..no one could replace you..never...

i feel very bad...uhukuhukuhuk...porqué usted tuvo que ir...usted me deja aquí todo solo